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[28 Jul 2004|02:10am]
I am quitting this journal. If you happen to care about my life for some reason, email me at auntiegravity(at)msn.com and I'll send you my new username, ok?

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[20 Jul 2004|01:42am]
I love the beach.

I do not love when it's my last night on the beach and it's one in the morning and I go out there by myself to walk and think, and a naked guy follows me. And I also do not love that he looks like Bob the Bachelor and is 40 years old and tries to make me get naked and asks me creepy questions about my nonexistant sex life. And he tries to rub his humongous boner on me, and tells me he just wants me to look at it.

This was an entire week ago, and I still want to puke every time I think about it.
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[28 Jun 2004|11:46pm]
I think I'm quitting this journal. Perhaps.
Know why? Because IT SUCKS. I never write in it, and when I do--total bullshit.

All I know is,

Dear Sloane,
You and I really need to be friends.
That is all.
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[21 Jun 2004|11:43am]
Dudes! Look at my new pets!

Harriet and RamonaCollapse )
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[09 Jun 2004|12:58am]
today I was thinking about how easy it was to prove someone wrong when we were little. All you even had to say was "NUH-UH!" and the other kid usually shut up. I miss that.

Anyway, I feel terrible about myself lately. I don't know if I'm just being too critical or if I really am that bad. For instance, I get so pissed off at myself for letting other people get on my nerves. It's not even the other person who is making me crazy, really, it's me and no one else.
On top of that, I'm completely, totally, utterly racked with guilt about something I did the other night. It's regret that is never going to go away. Never. I'm totally screwed.
Oh yeah, I barely passed school this year. I'm such an idiot. I really need to get over my perfectionism, because it is really fucking stuff up these days, worse than ever. I can't believe I do this shit to myself.

Basically, I am so full of regret that I am choking on it.

some rambling bullshit, as usualCollapse )
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[01 Jun 2004|12:07am]

For the past week or so, I've been living in an episode of Degrassi.

Dear life,
Please get better. That, or go away.
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[25 May 2004|11:04pm]
it was a good day today, i guess.
i went to the cliffs with some people and somehow ended up swimming with eight naked dudes, some of whom were very, very hot. yeah. mmmhmm.
after that, rehab center talent show, which was the highlight of my life.

in other news, I'm a jealous bitch, and I'm being torn between two friends. Not fun.
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[21 May 2004|07:13pm]
I've done some really stupid shit lately,
but it's ok, because according to one of the rehabbers, I'm apparently "SO PRETTY" that I "could be hired at ANY McDonald's or Burger King."
Thank you, rehabber. Thank you.
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[18 May 2004|10:21pm]
A lot has happened since my last rare update. Most notably, I have a)relocated (again) and b) totally ignored all responsibility, namely my English term paper. Part of me can't believe that I may actually fail a semester (that's the conformist side), and the other part, well, the other part wants to fail the semester just to see what it feels like. I really hate school, because it completely drains the life and passion from anyone who dares set foot inside.
I will spare you from my long anti public education speech though. Jeez, I'm just glad it's practically over.

I am really sad, though, because a lot of my friends are graduating Saturday, and I'm not exactly sure how I will function. It's kind of like a mass death...everyone just disappears, you never see them again, and you talk about them like they were completely flawless for the rest of your life. Or something.
I just realized that I went all day without seeing Lauren once, and it just feels so unnatural.

But yeah. I love daylight savings time.

Do you want to know what I love more than anything in the whole world, seriously? Honeysuckle. It is probably the most comfortable smell on earth for me--it can keep me sane, even when I'm at my dad's. When I leave Tennessee one day, all I will miss is 6 30 on a may morning, the world still damp from dew, windows down and awesome music, with honeysuckle to make it all perfect.
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[14 Apr 2004|11:19pm]
[ mood | burpish ]

when's the last time i even wrote in this fucker? i don't know why i keep this thing, it's stupid and boring to read, and i never write about anything important.

so yeah, i am the worst fuckin' procrastinator that ever walked the earth. isn't it grand that two very important things i haven't even started on need to be finished, ah, say, TOMORROW?!?! i need pointers on how not to be an idiot.

so i think maybe i'm in love. updates on that later, when i decide.

there's a creepy new wheelchair guy at work who wanted to take my picture today. for some reason i just let him. i hope he doesn't hang it up on his wall and fantasize about me at night or something. i swear the way gina, lauren, and i get spoken to, you'd think the rehab center was a fuckin' night club. every day, the sexual advances and requests for my number overwhelm me.

me: what would you like?
anthony: chicken, and some of that [points at my boobs]
me:[rolls eyes] um, no, but what piece of chicken do you want?
anthony: i don't know, a couple breasts, maybe some inner thigh.

i lol'ed at that one.
in creepier news, the wheelchair stalker-fuck also known as victor is back in rehab. KILL ME NOW! this dude is the creep of all creeps who regularly undresses me with his eyes for hours on end. He is famous in some circles for hitting on me with cheesy pickup lines such as:" yeah, i'm visually impaired, i was blinded by your beauty [licks lips]" or "if compliments are a crime, CONVICT MEEEE!." jesus.

the best thing that happened to me all week was being hit on by new rehabber, brandon.
"how old are you?"
"so, uh, you play yu-gi-oh?"

holy shit, best pick-up line ever.

i guess that's it.

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[22 Mar 2004|09:46pm]
[ mood | blank ]


nothing ever happens to me that's worth mentioning.

i'm in day four of the 10,000 minute fast. and i'm so not even hungry. as a fat girl, i find this ironic. i wish it would hurt, that's the whole reason i'm even doing it. to suffer. oh, well. three more days, and i'm not even sure i'm going to want to eat then.
it's cold in here.

i abso-friggin-lutely cannot wait until the weather gets warmer. it's been so sunny but still cold. the only thing that has been saving me from ruin for the past couple of months is the idea of getting off of work and going out on the back dock only to find the sun still out. the day it happens i'll probably cry, i've been waiting for so long.

i'm SO done with prom and it's not even here yet. i seriously don't want to go. no one can get along about anything. where to stay, what to drive, where to eat. whatever, people! i don't even know why i'm going. i'll probably just bitch inside my head the whole time and imagine all the dresses getting ripped and their wearers being devastated. ha. i don't even like my dress. i can't find shoes or jewelry or a good attitude to go with it. but my date is cute, and he's wearing a gray suit. adorable.

i've been a real bitch to my friends lately, too. a total bitch. i suck so bad.

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what's this? an update?!?! OMG!!1 [14 Mar 2004|11:31pm]
enjoy it, suckers.

a month or so in pictures. ignore sentence fragments.Collapse )
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[04 Feb 2004|11:33pm]
my sister had another kid today.

she's cute.

Caya BelleCollapse )
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[26 Jan 2004|09:51am]
[ mood | pensive ]

not going to school is the best thing ever. and hot raspberry tea with soymilk.
i had an amazing weekend, really, but some things will just never stop sucking. it seems like every friendship i've ever been involved in has gone or will go terribly wrong.

-fat ass
+definite prom date
-best friend hates me
+new records
-family hates me
+tasty salsa
-there's never enough time in the world

-everyone and everything i touch is ruined

everyone's favorite fattyCollapse )

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[13 Jan 2004|01:08pm]
nothing eventful ever happens in my life. except, of course, at work. it's crazy working at the rehab center. we have all sorts of people.

Cast of CharactersCollapse )
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[07 Jan 2004|09:07pm]
[ mood | "I love him, I love him..." ]

every time i write something in here, it seems weird and a bad representation of me. i wish i were a better writer.

i have two non-dates this weekend. i am going to cry (for lack of actual dates). no, i'm not. i don't really give a damn.

anyway, school is going so much better than i expected. so far. i was actually considering transferring to another school. crazy. i'm nervous about prom and prom show and all of that stuff. i never wear a dress.

ok, bye.

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[31 Dec 2003|03:01pm]
[ mood | good ]

my new year's resolution is to tell all the people that i hate that i hate them, and all the people i love that i love them. seems easy enough, right? i don't know.

happy new year, jerks.

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[29 Dec 2003|04:29pm]
[ mood | hmmm ]

some of what has happened. by kaelee.Collapse )

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[05 Dec 2003|07:19pm]
[ mood | whatever. ]

in other news, my life's a crazy, insane, almost intolerable mess.

and i love it.

it really is great not knowing what will happen next, ever.
i have to go to my dad's tonight, then drive back in the morning for work. and then repeat.lame. i had a dream i was a scenester and went to a show, then afterward went to a coffee house conveniently located inside of a hospital. weird.

working at the rehab center has got to be the coolest job in the history of...EVER. some of the stuff that goes on in that place... hilarious. we're having a christmas party at tammy's (one of my bosses). it's funny because she didn't even say "we're having it at my house," she said "we're gonna have it at the trailer."

that's the end.

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[27 Nov 2003|02:47am]
[ mood | tired ]

i'm so proud of my new layout. i did it all by myself!

in other news,
my stepmom came back. i am so mad at my dad for this, and i'm mad at her for even existing. it wasn't even 4 whole days. god.

today is thanksgiving, and even though this holiday evokes images of genocide for me, i want to write about what i am thankful for.

in no particular order:
-my family
-toenail polish
-swedish fish
-indoor plumbing
-rilo kiley
-my friends--some of them are pretty cool
-toaster, preferably containing toast
-a car
-the internet
-my fun job
-pajama pants
-the hot freshman--he will be mine, oh yes, he will be mine
-the venus flytrap my secret pal gave me
-my brand-new checking account
-comfortable bean bag chair at best friend's house

i think that's about it.
happy thanksgiving.
remember, tomorrow's Buy Nothing Day. Damn the man!

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